Sunday, July 31, 2011

May I Have This Dance?

It's really no secret that I'm a sucker for cliche romance. Especially old English romance.

I love the advances that modern technology has blessed my life with but sometimes I think I'd give it all up in a heat beat to be a member of high society Victorian England. Of course I'm almost positive that that era has been horrible over glamorized and probably consisted mainly of a lot of unhappy forced marriages and disease. Still I think I'd at least enjoy getting to go to a ball. Those things don't really exist nowadays. Dancing has turned into something very animalistic and it  honestly disturbs me. That isn't to say that there aren't still plenty of people who have kept the old dancing traditions alive, I just wish it were more mainstream. I think we could really benefit from that dose of culture.

In other news, though slightly related, I've found myself very conflicted lately on whether the technology we have now is really helping us to connect with others more easily or if it is in fact doing the opposite and hindering that ability. Personally I've always been EXTREMELY shy when it comes to person to person contact. I always wanted to go talk to certain people, especially cosplayers in my early NDK years, but I never had the guts. I'm not sure what I thought would happen but I guess I assumed that I'd make a complete fool out of myself in front of the people that I so much admired. As years went my I became more comfortable with approaching people for pictures and such but I still couldn't initiate a conversation no matter how simple. Facebook actually helped me with this. At first I felt like a creepy stalker person for friending people I had never actually talked to before but I quickly found that the majority of the cosplay community is extremely nice and easy to befriend. Becoming a more serious cosplayer myself gave me even more of an outlet to meet people like me through cons as well as Facebook (facebook helping through events like meetups and such which gave me the perfect opportunity to talk to people face to face) and now I've made some irreplaceable friends and even gotten to talk to some of the cosplayers that I absolutely idolized at my first few cons.

Now on the downside....I feel like it's harder then ever to meet people outside of large interest groups such as Cosplay. You can't make random friends through sites like Facebook...well I suppose you could try just adding random people but I highly doubt that's ever been very successful for anyone...or safe. Other chat sites and places for people to meet like oh I don't know...MyYearbook or Myspace are really nothing more then a place to put yourself out there and see how many people want to hook up with you or ask to see your boobs.

So how do you meet new people? How do you venture outside your box of friends and find other people in a world where we are all so caught up in online social circles and too afraid of strangers to ever really expose our true natures in public?

Sometimes in my little daydreams I like to imagine a giant power outage and everyone just coming outside in their neighborhoods to talk..even if it's just about what the heck is happening. Of course I do realize that once again that is the glamorized version of a situation who's reality would consist of a lot of theft, mass hysteria, and loss of refrigerated goods....(the worst part of all!)

And since that was a rather depressing and long spiel there I shall try to lighten things up with a picture and perhaps some good natured jargon.

So maybe the fact of life is that we can't always change the world and we can't relive the past. We can however enjoy every single damn moment we have on this Earth and why shouldn't we? The world might end tomorrow for all we know so we really have to make things count now. I'm trying my best to be the person I've always wanted to be so you all should too! And hell, maybe I'll take a ballroom dancing class.


May I have this dance?

Monday, July 25, 2011

Lights, Camera, Lulu

"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is, because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary wise, what is, it wouldn't be. And what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?”
  -Alice in Wonderland

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All my life I've constantly wondered why things weren't nearly as exciting as everything I saw on TV or read about in books. I was always lost in my imagination making up stories and worlds and adventures. I have always been determined to find the fantasy within reality and live out a dream. 


18 years I've had these thoughts but now that I've become an official member of adult society I've been forced to rethink a lot of them. I still daydream about childish things like maybe finding Narnia in my closet or stumbling into a rabbit hole and waking up in wonderland. I'd be flat out lying to you all if I said I didn't honestly wish these things would happen at least once a week. Unfortunately though my daydreams are more often interrupted with the stresses of reality and the pressure of being thrown into the great wide world on my own. 


At first I found myself getting depressed. I wasn't even sure if a wishy washy daydreamer like myself could handle college, and work, and eventually a family and career. I felt myself longing for the days when I was just a kid who could run around pretending to Sailor Moon without any care in the world. Now though I've come to terms with it. I'm still that same daydreamer and I've taken it to new places. I'm an avid anime fan, video game fan, and cosplayer. I take that love of fantasy with me wherever I go in one way or another and I never stop coming up with new ideas for stories, pictures, and poems. I'm ready for the world and the responsibilities that come with it. It won't be easy I'm sure but I hope it will be worth it and even more then that, I hope I can make some of my more realistic daydreams come true! 



My name is Lauren but my nickname is Lulu. I would never try to describe myself in one word because I just don't think I could ever settle on one. I'm a huge fan of most everything Japanese, music in all fashions, and art. This is my blog about..well pretty much everything  ^___^